Honestly, I really don't know how to start this blog. I've been so insecure with other people's bodies. It was college, rough days studying and Eating became our best friend. Eating became our hobby that time, from all the stress we had studying, homework that we needed to pass before the deadlines. Thesis to review and also Feasibility Study to complete. It was so hard but yet so enjoyable. I also thought that gaining weight would not be an issue.
Until we graduated, i noticed that some of my clothes were already tight. I ignored it and just bought new clothes. As days passed by, my anxieties consume me. It's when i was looking for a job. A lot of employers denied my application. Just so you know, I am a Hotel Restaurant Administration Bachelor's Degree Graduate.
Looking for a decent job is the most stressful days i had. The most depressing i had ever experienced even when i tried all my best. I felt really UGLY. Why did i say that? well, I know because in our Industry, BODY SIZE matters. APPEARANCE matters. Life is so UNFAIR.
Perfect Skinny People with Beautiful Faces can have the things they want in just quick smile and charms. I always question my self, what is wrong with me? Why can't i be just BEAUTIFUL like them?
I listened to the society judge me. That's when i decided to make myself busy and skip for 2 years working.I searched for remedies how to loose weight. IT'S HARD. I almost starved myself.Even if you drown yourself into the GYM, trust me, it's useless. SELF-LOVE is the hardest thing to learn. CONFIDENCE too. so Shout out to all the girls working on loving their bodies, that's shit's is really hard and i just want to say that i am really so proud of you. LOVING YOURSELF IS THE GREATEST REVOLUTION.
I tried everything just to achieve the body i want. It took more than a year before i learn how to be confident with myself including to love my body now and take care of it. I started to learn to eat veggies. Some healthy food i hate that i learned to eat. It's fun! You tend to sacrifice a little. The downside of it is that i think i overdo myself. I'm on the edge wherein i almost became anorexic. My Mom an Dad where furious when i get sick very often. I deprived myself eating the food i want harshly. It's sad. It's not healthy. That's when it come to the point, i learned this amazing lesson from influencers in the world sharing awareness that women should always remember that
"Body Confidence doesn't come from trying to achieve the perfect body. It comes from embracing the one you've already got!"
It's very powerful and meaningful lesson we always should remember.
"You are Imperfect. Permanently and Flawed. and You are Beautiful" - AMY BLOOM
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